The more I’m in my marriage the more I see it’s not for me. Hold on, wait, before you get me wrong, I mean in the sense of what marriage is about. It’s more than loving my husband and wanting to be with him all the time. It’s more than children and starting a family and though these are somewhat important, it does not compare to the fact that it should be a representation of Christ and the church.
I lied and in my eyes, it seemed like a one-off. I couldn’t believe that I had lied to my husband but more so about something so small. My conscience was gnawing at me. You’ve just blatantly sinned against God. The conviction of the Holy Spirit was present and down the rabbit hole of my mind, I went. ” You know it starts small and before you know it you’re lying about bigger things.” I can’t do this I thought, I’m supposed to be a Christian, living and making the right decisions. As I pondered on how to overcome this, the only thing I could do was confess. With grace, my husband forgave me and thanked me for telling him the truth.
“With grace my husband…” It was in the midst of this that I recalled how Christ constantly forgives His wayward bride the Church. I believe my husband, though a mere man himself, displayed what Ephesians 5 verse 25 talks about, “husbands love your wives even as Christ loved the Church and gave Himself for it.” I knew that my husband loved me and I think It pleased him that I opened up to him with the truth.
This is exactly what God wants from us people but even more the body of Christ (church). He says that if we confess our sins He is faithful and just to forgive us and cleanse us from all unrighteousness 1 John 1 verse 9. God knows we don’t always do what’s right but having made a way through Christ, He doesn’t expect us to stay in our sin.
I’m not expecting that my husband will forget my lie completely, lets be honest forgive and forget doesn’t work with us people. Am I expecting him to bring it up? No, and I’m thankful that he has chosen to respond in a manner which reflects the life we are pursuing; one of circumspection. I’m so thankful to God for His mercies that He doesn’t cast us off but convicts us through His Spirit and leads us to repentance. The only thing with that is there must be a willingness on your part to accept God’s challenge.